okay so im not gonna link this to the main directory just cos i want it to be private. i guess this blog is kinda like a diary of mine now & i feel like ive gotta talk about things. maybe i'll come back and read it later or maybe ill just forget about it
just feelin a bit sorry for ryder lately. the guys a really good laugh and a lot of people love him but i know theres more than what meets the eye... earlier today we were jus talking about life and the future and he started kinda spiralling into a weird self-criticising state.. just like going on about how he doesn't really know what he wants to do with his life, doesn't know what hes gonna do after college finishes this summmer coming. the thing that got him was that everyone around him knows what they wanna do. i tried convincing him that loads of people dont have it all figured out and that i dont think you're supposed to have it all figured out at 17/18 yknow. i told him i def dont. ryders always been the craziest and i think its cos hes worried that he'll end up mediocre. but he's my best mate and i know he's just bein stupid. believe it or not he's fairly bright so i could see him contributing to the world in some way very soon
thats all really. i actually have no idea why i wrote this but it felt nice